What am I thankful for?

What am I thankful for? I don't know... Friends? what are those? Family? Huh? can you speak in a language I can understand? How about life? uh... Please... Life? HAHAHAHA! Actually I do have some things... they are as follows: Natasha, Rachel, Meaghan, Mimi, 3siap for that matter, and Grandmother. *sigh*
That brings me to the question of the week: How can life be so great one second and so fucked up the next?
Its a good question. For someone else to answer. I need it answered. But I know it won't be. Well... the 22nd was the four year mark of Grandmother's passing That was four years and two days ago today... Its hard to be thankful for anything. Well I have a lot to say... I just don't know how to say it...

I've finally decied to stop hanging on memories of Marc for support. and ya know... I'm so sorry to him... because I created this giant problem to hide what my real problems are... I'm not sure what they are yet... but I know they're there... But I used him... and I feel horrible... I'm so sorry Marc! I really am! *sigh* he'll never accept that appology... he doesn't care... he'll never forgive me. He doesn't care how bad I feel... to him its in the past... but not really... because he'll always hate me for it. Way to make me feel horrilbe Marc... good job.


Well Personal Project is calling my name!

12 days, a display board, 7 1/2 pages, and 616 words away! CURSE THE PERSONAL PROJECT!