Time to update

So last time I posted was like weeks ago. Not much has happened I guess... I'm kind of taking a break from Taylor Connect. I go on like once a day. I have no desire to see what's going on on that god forsaken website. I finally just don't care. Yes, there's a lot of injustice on the board... but I couldn't possibly stop it. Especially since the admin of the board will never listen to me. So I really don't care anymore.

I'm now obsessed with The Big Bang Theory, Chuck, and Bones. Those are the three shows I picked up since last time I posted. I really don't know what else to post.

Check the TV blog for a Glee season finale review.

I'm going to be on TV someday

So for a while I've been obsessed with TV. I mean, beyond what a normal person is... Like I love TV more than anyone should love TV. So I've been thinking... Since I love TV so much... why am I not looking for a career in it? I mean, I'm constantly pretending I'm on some talk show talking about some theoretical role I have on some show... but why do I never say that's what I want to do? Well today, I am. I am finally saying I want to be an actress on TV. I mean, I'll continue with school obviously... and I'll continue with my dreams of psychology... but I'll also try for a career in acting. I feel like it's a shallow dream to want to be an actress... but it's my dream. And I do have a back up plan. One that I love very much. I love psychology and I can't wait to be a therapist. I want to help teenagers so bad. And I will write my book. And it will be a hit. But I will also be an actress... Or at least try. I mean, how will I know if I'm not any good at it if I never try? And I've had people tell me to look at local theater stuff first... but I don't want to act in theater. I don't want to act in film. I want to be on TV. I mean, I will look for stuff in my local theater... And if a film part came around that I loved, I'd do it. But my home is TV.

I've always loved TV. And I spend so much time researching the production of my favorite shows. I mean... I spend hours researching the actors and watching everything they've done... including interviews. I spend hours watching interviews of the writers and watching other things they've written. And I pay attention to who directs what episodes... and who produces them. Pretty soon, I'm going to start a new blog... a TV review blog (I'll still keep this one and write in it frequently). But TV is such a passion of mine. It's time I take advantage of that.

People think I'm such a bum.. They think that I just sit here and watch with no thought. But that's wrong. I think about everything. About what's going on in the actor's ming, what the writers were thinking... who's the inspiration for this character... what that character would do if it had gone slightly differently... kind of like how in that episode of Scrubs where the butterfly lands on that woman's boobs and the guy JD is trying to save dies and then the butterfly lands on the fat guy and the whole episode is different.. the guy still dies but it's a whole different story... I think about that. Like what if So-and-so bumped into So-and-so? What if that drink had spilled another way and not gotten all over So-and-so's pants? And more than that... why did it go that way?

I don't think I have the talent to write... I'm not patient enough or creative enough... But I could be a damn good actress.

Thoughts? Please have some. Good or bad... I'd like to hear them.




EDIT Link to my new TV blog: here

I was told to write more

So on formspring, someone told me to write more. What to say... I'm officially halfway through Doogie Howser. I love that show. I love Neil Patrick Harris. He's my latest celebrity obsession. I don't know if I'll get over him... He's kind of REALLY awesome. Plus, he's got the voice of an angel. AHH GLEE THIS WEEK WAS EPIC! I REALLY hope we get to see Bryan Ryan again! =] Such a good character and again... his voice is like an angel! Other than that, there's really not that much to say. I mean, my life is pretty boring right now... I wake up sometime after 2, I watch Doogie until I someone calls me with something to do... I might pause it and watch an interview or two... or listen to music and dance around my room. I've found much joy in blasting Glee's cover of Dream On by Areosmith and freaking out... That episode was the best we've had all season. I'm not watching next week because it's Gaga. I hate Lady Gaga. Like with a passion. It is going to be weird to not watch Glee though...

It's kind of sad. This week was the week of hiatuses and season finales. Cougar Town, The Middle, Modern Family, House, today we have Private Practice, The Office, and Community... I hate season hiatuses. I don't want to wait 'till fall to know what happens!

I think I'm going to do a whole-nother entry on what TV means to me... so more on hiatuses later...

I'm a Swiftie through and through

I don't know how I missed it... but last night I learned Taylor performed at the 2008 RNC. Reading that hurt me so bad. I know most people think it shouldn't mean that much to me... But if you knew me in person, you'd understand. I doubt any of you will ever meet someone more liberal than me. Finding out that before I stalked her myspace every day she posted "republicans do it better" really hurt. I don't know how I had missed that... but I did. Yesterday, on formpsring someone asked me what I would do if I found out Taylor was a republican and I said, I'd go from megafan to fan. But I just can't do it. She's not the person I thought she was... not at all... but I can't leave this place. I can't get rid of my posters. I can't get rid of my shirts. I can't take my ticket off my wall. I don't hear her songs and get upset and/or mad like I thought I would. I hear her songs and still feel the excitement I did before. I can close my eyes and see her at that concert on May 1. While I know if I saw her walking down the street, now my reaction would be quite different. I'd jump and scream less and I'd probably open with a rather serious question (how she feels about LGBT rights)... but I still want to meet her just as bad. She's still helped me to realize that my dreams are worth fighting for. She still makes me FEARLESS. It's kind of amazing to me that while I thought this would be the end of my Taylor megafan life.... it's just the beginning. This has proved to me how strong my love for Taylor is. I mean, her politics still matter to me... but they matter much less than I thought they would. And I really only care about one issue. I don't care how she feels about anything but my rights. That's it. I've been crying all day about this... but not because she's a republican and it's over... but because she's a republican and it's not. I guess Taylor's music just runs through my blood. And there's nothing I can do about it.

I still love her. And unless she comes out and says something against LGBT, I probably always will.

Let downs

Today was a day of let downs. Glee was epic... I love Neil Patrick Harris. But then I found out Taylor is a republican. I didn't watch the RNC in 2008. I should have. I can't believe I didn't know. I feel heartbroken. An hour ago, she was my idol. A woman I strived to be. She's just a singer that I like. She stands for everything I'm against. And I'm heartbroken. I don't even know how to respond. I just want to curl up and die. It hurts that bad. I think I'm going to watch Glee again because Neil Patrick Harris is so amazing and makes life better. He has a voice of an angel. What a sad day.

RENT

It's no secret I'm a HUGE RENThead. I love RENT with all of my heart. It was the first thing that turned me onto musical theater, which I now LOVE. RENT has inspired me in ways that are just unimaginable. Nothing, not even Taylor, gets me as excited as RENT. When I hear a RENT song playing, I go crazy. I don't care where I am or who I'm with, I will be dancing like a maniac.

Recently, I've also fallen in love with Neil Patrick Harris. And it's no surprise that I've been youtubing videos of his time in RENT as Mark. While I was doing that, I stumbled upon a documentary that was just phenomenal. Especially part 2, which talks about Jonathan Larson and his life. It's just beautiful. His friends and family are interviewed and there's footage of him singing and him performing. I think this documentary really tells the story of RENT. It's about the LA production of RENT and how that all went down. I'm linking you guys to the playlist I created on my YouTube channel for this documentary. You should watch if you have the time. But if not, that's understandable. You should at least make time for the 8 minutes and 4 seconds of part 2. I promise, you will not regret it.

http://www.youtube.com/user/zobothehobo#grid/user/DC598C8B14D08A2E

Enjoy.

Gay.

I'm just going to put this out in the open. I love being gay. And I love how on TaylorConnect, people are hearting my posts in support of gay people. I was just involved in a fight on a Neil Patrick Harris message board about sexuality and the gay supports won like no one's business. It makes me feel like we might actually have a shot at equality at some point in my lifetime. But something that I think is said way too little... is the fight for equality is not just about being proud. It's about fighting. It is called a "fight" for a reason. Someone on TaylorConnect said to "chill out." But I won't "chill out." It's not ok for someone to say something like "you're gay, that's nasty." Something I said in the fight on the NPH board was about how if we want equality, we're going to have to start acting like we're not all that different. I know that has nothing to do with the comment made on TaylorConnect... but since we're on the subject, I figured I'd rant a bit.

A friend of mine recently read an article in Cosmo (I know, not the most prestigious source... but whatever) about gender equality in the workplace. The central message of the article was if women want to have equality and be treated like men, they shouldn't just whine and complain like little girls. They should do something and start "manning up." If your boss is mean to you, don't go cry about it, do better work. It's the same general idea. If we want equality, we're going to have to work for it. And that means no more stupid drag shows. No more pride rallies that become "who can look the most like the opposite sex." None of that. We need to look like we're just normal people living normal lives who deserve normal rights. Enough with the flamboyant act. It's no longer cute and funny. It's taking away from our credibility. It's what happened to CodePINK the women's anti-war group. Their stunts and plays on the color pink were cute and funny and played a part in the message at first... and then they became too crazy and too "housewife-y" and all credibility they ever had was lost in those stupid stunts. That's what's happening to the gay community. Those rallies at one point in time were funny and cute and a play on what society said we should be... but now, we're just proving them right. I have another friend who can't understand why I hate drag shows. He said to me "drag shows are like a rite of passage in the gay community." I think that's wrong. it should not be a rite of passage to play into the stereotypes that all gay people are just like members of the opposite sex. That negates our point that we're normal people with normal lives who deserve normal rights.

I would apologize for ranting... but really, blogs are for ranting and raving and talking nonsense about your life. haha