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Friday, October 20, 2006

My Wish... Is one more day with you

Yeah... so... uh... I've named this month "Marc Month" and yeah... And I have big news! But all of you will have to wait for it! I'll torture you like JR tortured us! MWAHAHAHAHA!



I hope the days come easy and moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you, and the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more than you take.

But More than anything, Yeah, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish. Yeah.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

Yeah... so that's one song I have had stuck in my head that is what I wish for lots of people... including: Marc (duh), Maya, Xena, and now Mallory... because I really feel like I've lost her...



Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me,
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

Chorus

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do. With one more day with you

Chorus

Leave me wishing still for one more day
Leave me wishing still for one more day

That's the other song I've had stuck in my head a lot lately... I wish this song for Marc (duh) and some of it Mal... God I miss her!

OMG! I've been so bloody tired lately I could fucking die! I love the big news I have... its really big! And I love that quote "Those three words are said too much, but not enough" from Chasing Cars. Because its so true. "I love you" is said WAY too much. But it's never said when its meant. Its said when its NOT meant. Because its scary to say it when you mean it. I know that from experience. It sucks butt. And same with "I'm sorry." its said WAY too much but no one means it when they say it. They mean it when they don't say it. Which further proves "its not what you say, its what you do" and "actions speak louder than words."

I so love that line in "My Wish" that says "I hope you never look back, but ya never forget, all the ones who love you, in the place you left." I do. I hope he never looks back, but never forgets the ones who love him in the place he left. But I really hope he comes back for the really big thing I have to say. ITS SO BIG!!!!!!!!!

*le sigh* I love saying that... and I don't know why.

OH! the banner for the big thing is so pretty full... ITS BIG!

Ok... I'm bored so I'm just going to say... the Broughton High School Band has been invited to the Tournament of Roses in 2008! YAY! yeah...

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

I'm a loser

Ok... so Lets sum up August and September!

Band camp: Song: Torn by Natalie Imbruglia



I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
there's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
that's what's going on, nothings fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late, I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much
there's just so many things that I cant touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late, I'm already torn. torn.

there's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
that's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
you're a little late, I'm already torn

That and "I ache" haha! But seriously, nothing I've ever done before hurt that much... EVER!

First week to two weeks or school : Song: Life Less Ordinary by Carbon Leaf



Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me
Live a life less sedentary
Live a life evolutionary with me
Well I hate to be a bother,
But it's you and there's no other, I do believe
You can call me naive but...
I know me very well (at least as far as I can tell)
And I know what I need

The night you came into my life
Well it took the bones of me, took the bones of me
You blew away my storm and strife
And shook the bones of me, shook the bones of me
By the way, I do know why you stayed away...
I will keep tongue-tied next time

Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me
My face had said too much
Before our hands could even touch
To greet a 'hello'
(So much for going slow...)
A little later on that year
I told you that I loved you dear
What do you know?
This you weren't prepared to hear
I'm a saddened man, I'm a broken boy
I'm a toddler with a complex toy
I've fallen apart, since the ambush of your heart

The night you came into my life
Well it took the bones of me, took the bones of me
You blew away my storm and strife
And shook the bones of me, shook the bones of me.
By the way, I do know why you stayed away
I will keep tongue-tied but...

Honey understand, honey understand
I won't make demands
Honey understand, honey understand
We could walk without a plan.
Honey understand (honey), honey understand
I won't rest in stone all alone
Honey understand, honey understand
I'm all ready to go
But you already know...

Live a life less ordinary
Live a life extraordinary with me.
If I could name you in this song
Would it make you smile and sing along?
This is the goal: to get into your soul
If I could make you dance for joy
Could that be the second-chance decoy?
The bird-in-hand I would need
To help you understand?

The night you came into my life
well it took the bones of me, took the bones of me
You blew away my storm and strife
And shook the bones of me, shook the bones of me
By the way, I do know why you stayed away
I will keep tongue-tied next time

That is SOOO a Marc song! and I LOVE it! It was ok... I HATE Ms. Daughtry and really B-days! and I missed Marc... but that was nothing new

September: Songs: Rent songs, Life Less Ordinary by Carbon Leaf, Le Chemin by Kyo, and others

Ok... September was all about band! OMG! JR SHOULD DIE! That's not new though...

Now:

Song: Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol



We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

*sigh*

I miss Marc so much! HE CAME BACK FOR HOMECOMING! IT WAS SO AMAZING TO SEE HIM AGAIN! Only, I didn't get to say goodbye! AHH! I STILL haven't said goodbye! The last thing I've told him to his face was "You are mean! You are a real asshole do you know that?" and he said "Yep!" and walked away! AHH! Oh and I've officially decided I'm gonna be IB! And I'm gonna go to UNC... I'm a sophomore and I already know this! YAH!

Oh my PP is going good so far! I'm doing extraordinary rendition... Yep... Sophmore year is going pretty damn good! OH AND I MISSED MISS ROYALL SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I can't stand that Kyle and Maya are going out... it drives me crazy... well... I'm gonna put up the lyrics to "Le Chemin" then post this on the other blogs!

(scrolly lyrics comming shortly)

Regarde-toi assise dans l'ombre
A la lueur de nos mensonges
Une main glacée jusqu'à l'ongle

Regarde toi à l'autre pôle
Fermer les yeux sur ce qui nous ronge
On a changé à la longue

{Refrain:}
On a parcouru les chemins
On a tenu la distance
Et je te hais de tout mon corps
Mais je t'adore
On a parcouru les chemins
On a souffert en silence
Et je te hais de tout mon corps
Mais je t'adore encore

Je vis dans une maison de verre
A moitié rempli de ton eau
Sans s'arrêter le niveau monte

Je suis le fantôme qui s'égare
Je suis étranger à ton coeur
Seulement regarde comme on est seul

{au Refrain, x4}

Monday, October 02, 2006

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