Guess what..... SONGS OF NOW pART 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I used to love him by Lauryn Hill
lyrics read them... God if I could not love him anymore!

Tubthumper by Chumbawamba
" I get knocked down But I get up again You're never going to keep me down" OH YEAH!!!

Make Damn Sure by Taking Back Sunday
Marc, "I just wanna bring you down so badly Well I trip over everything you say And I just wanna bring you down so badly In the WORST WAY!"

One thing by Finger Eleven
lyrics this a great song and it has significant meaning to me... It ROCKS!!!

What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts
lyrics I love this song! And "What hurts the most is being so close and HAVING SO MUCH TO SAY AND WATCHING YOU WALK AWAY" Oh yeah... That IS what hurts the most

Soak up the sun by Sheryl Crow
LYRICS HAHA! I LOVE THIS SONG!!!! Its one of my songs of now because it is!!!!

Take it easy by The Eagles
Great song... Great group and...... GREAT LYRICS!!!!!! "Take it easy, take it easy Dont let the sound of your own wheels Drive you crazy Lighten up while you still can Dont even try to understand Just find a place to make your stand And take it easy" Great advice for EVERYONE!!!

Thats all I really feel like doing RIGHT now... Later...

oh and Now an important message...............
For an update...
Ok a while ago there was this guy named Willie who came into English class and he was so freaking HILLARIOUS!!! I mean Mrs. George is a HORRIBLE teacher and COULD NOT control him! It was SOOOO great!!!!

Then in Band that same day (it was before then I know but oh well) Anyway JR was GREAT that day! Like it was sooo funny! Ok so Ashleigh is a looser... HAHAHAHA!! And Girls get MOIST!! HEE HEE HEE!!!!!!

Then later that day Maya goes to gaurd.... everyone loves her more than me because shes NOT me! OH well!

I forget what happened thursday...

then Friday... Math took a test that I failed!!!
French... HAD FUN Talking about my mom getting arrested and "me la te la nous la vous la come on lets all do the hula!!!!!" WOOT WOOT FOR COOL SONGS IN FRENCH CLASS!!!!!
Band.... SOOO FUN!!! I spent the whole period telling people around me about how Maya wasn't what she seemed... and JR kept cracking jokes at me and Maya.... FUN! Oh and when JR said that Maya ACUTALLY slapped me... SOMEONE IN THE PERCUSSION SECTION CLAPPED!!!! ERG THEM....
English... Blah!
After school.... GOOD DAY
Yesterday... GOOD DAY!
Today thus far... GOOD DAY!!! LIFE IS FINALLY LOOKING UP!! WOOT WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!!!!!! I am HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! And I have heard Bad Day over and Over again on the radio which makes my days even better!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, REALLY quick...

Ok, so really fast I will talk about these really important things to me...

NEWS is now in my mind North East West South! I'll explain later

I walked into the bathroom in Study Skills on friday when I was feeling REALLY bad about Marc and everything and "Angel" by Mariah Carey was playing for some odd reason... anyway it was EXACTALLY what I needed to hear! OMG! It was GREAT

Then yesterday, Miss Lizz (my bus driver) came RIGHT as Marc was leaving! PERFECT TIMING!! And if you ALLREADY think perfect timing you don't know what happened next... WE GOT TO DRIVE RIGHT BEHIND HIM!!! Yeah... I got to stare at him AND his car through the windows by JUST LOOKING STRAIGHT!! WOOT WOOT!!! Yeah it was great....

Then today we left like after 6 other cars behind him so we were still up close and I still got to watch him... It was SOOO great! I told Miss Lizz if she could come at that time for the rest of the year I would be SOOO happy... I like seeing him on the road... and THIS IS NOT STALKING!!! I mean Miss Lizz is just HAPPINING to come when Marc is leaving... thats all... SOOO cool! I'm not stalking but I get to follow! WOOT WOOT!!! Yeah....

Oh and I'm going to do a "quotes of now" list... inbetween my "songs of now" list. WHICH is NOT done by the way... YEah... anyway I g2g 'cause I got to post this on my other two blogs before my mom comes home... bye! More later... when I have time....

Songs of now cont....

I bet that you look good on the dancefloor by the Artic MonkeysMarc, " I wish you'd stop ignoring me, because it's sending me to despairWithout a sound, yeah, you're calling me, and I don't think it's very fair" (haha, I can use songs I heard from you first to talk to you! WOOT!) and some of the other lyrics are really nice too.... so... LYRICS!!!She says by Unwritten Law"Father I've sinned over and over and over and over again" I have. "Sorry my friends I'm such a mess I'm doing the best I can" I am. " She says "I don't love you like I loved you before" She says, she says "I don't love you anymore"" I can't wait until I can say this and its true. Man, when I can say, "I don't love you anymore." "and mother I've tried over and over and over to open my eyes look at my life tell me when did I die cause I'm not alive flip through the script and tell me what it says skip through the story tell me how it ends" I would love to say this to MY mother. Pathetic I know. But true. *sigh* " and I want to go anywhere but home" I hate being here at home. My family drives me nuts... especially my parents. I can't stand it here. get me away!!!! " I... I'm done listening to whats wrong with mecause it goes on and on and on and on YEAH" I am. I hear it all the time. And it DOES go on and on... I can't do it anymore! YA HEAR THAT NOEL?! I CAN'T DO IT!!!!!! I'M TIRED OF HEARING WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!! PLEASE STOP!!!! I mean I get it from my family AND people at school and then there are those people like Noel and Ashleigh who can't stop telling me whats wrong with me. Its like if they don't, their life is incomplete. ERG!!!I feel so by Box Car Racerlyrics that says it all. Dakota by Steriophonicslyrics I don't know... just read... I just feel conected to this song... Pretty girl by Sugarcultlyrics Yeah... it just is... NOW THIS ONE IS ONLY FOR THE LYRICS!!! I SWEAR I DON'T LISTEN TO THIS SONG!!! I JUST STUMBLED ACROSS THE LYRICS AND I GO... "wow... those lyrics are..." !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!That was then by Jesse McCartneylyrics ... God, if Marc could say that to me... ERG!!!I'm already there by LonestarThis song is sad... I cry when I hear it and thats why it is a song of now... lyrics *sniffle*The first cut is the deepest by Sheryl Crowlyics They just work...Heaven is a place on Earth by Blenda CarlisleLYRICS OH YEAH!!! Marc, with you around Heavan is a place on Earth... or it can be hell... oh well....That's all I wanna do right now... Now a real updateMy report card SUCKED! I got an "f" in English because I forgot to turn in this work THAT I DID!!! ERG!!! So I got in trouble. Yeah... And Dad took us to Lake Johnson today, he made me do my stem words book... I made friends with the guy working the consession stand. There was this chick who just started yelling and he came out and was like "do you know what happened?" and I was like "no... she just started yelling...:" and he goes "See what I have to go through?" and I said "well you get paid!" and he said "Do you know how MUCH they pay me?!" and I said "no..." and he said "not enough!" and I said "well then quit" and he said "but I need the money" and I said "well... then tough!" and he goes "you know what, shut up!" HAHA! it was funny! Then I asked him these questions on my stem words book and he goes "I don't know... stop asking me! UHG!!!" HAHA! that was great... Oh and I opened the Thesaurus and I opened it and the first thing I saw was "Cervix- Channel" HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!! YEah... More later! I'm gonna hit the sack or in google terms "Go to the Land of Nod." HAHA! I love google! And the words of the day! HA!

Feelling better..

I'll finish the songs of now sometime like tomorrow... but right now I have to say... HAHA Read the first entry and the comments that go with it! That makes me laugh! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Songs of now...

These are songs of now... theres a lot of them but my life is at a major point right now...

Linger by The Cranberries
I love this song... I heard it first in Ms. Kittinger's science class. I say Marc, "You've got me wrapped around your finger, do you have to let it linger?"

More than words by Extream
I don't know why I like this song right now... I guess I want someone (at least one person) to show me with more than words that they care about me

I can only Imagine by MercyMe
"I can only imagine what it would be like." That says it all...

One last cry by Brian McKnight
" One last cry, before I leave it all behind Ive gotta put you outta my mind this time Stop living a lie I guess Im down to my last cry" I feel like I have one last cry before I leave Marc all behind or he leaves me all behind... I am thinking about what happens when he leaves more often now... its so close! I don't want it to come... I'm scared and sad!

I can't make you love me by Bonnie Raitt
This is the song I posted in the previous update... I have realized I can't make ANYONE love me... or see ME and not this crazy absurd chick who everyone talks about...

You raise me up by Josh Groban
One, Josh Groban has an amazing voice! Two, Josh Groban reminds me of the side of my mom I don't see anymore (the non-political side. YES! IT EXISTS! I know some of you who haven't KNOWN her or anything before this year don't know/believe that) Three, there are certain people in my life right now who raise me up. And I love them. This song goes to them.

I will remember you by Sara McLachlan
I would LOVE to sing this song to Marc... Because I will remember him and I wonder if he will remember me. Just here just read the lyrics then you will see

You and Me by Lifehouse
just read this too. How I would love to tell Marc that its just me and him and all other people with nothing to do NOTHING TO LOSE/PROVE! and its just me and him and all other people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes of of him.

Hero by Mariah Carey
I know... Mariah Carey is shit.... but the lyrics to this song speak to me and tell me I CAN carry on... There IS a hero in me.

I do it for you by Bryan Adams
I want to say this to my kitty and I want someone else to say it to me... I need that right now

We belong together by Mariah Carey
I know again, Mariah Carey... But "Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough" that is how I feel about Livia, who has been going through a rough time herself and has been saying that she can't be my friend anymore because I have my own problems and her problems aren't my only ones. I also have been thinking about the future lately and I wonder how its going to be when Byrdie leaves me. Because I realized I have lent on her an afull lot.

On my way by Phill Colins
I'm on my way to life. That's how I feel

Take a look though my eyes by Phill Colins
Oh how bad I want to sing this to my sisters and other people who are younger than me that I feel responsible for or I love or people who I just think need to see things my way!

Unforgetable by Nat King Cole
Oh how many people in my life right now are unforgetable!

Right here waiting by Richard Marx
Just read the lyrics again

Because you loved me by Celine Dion
Byrdie... you may not see it... but you have been there for me SO much and this one's for you. And Lara... you too. And Dana... me knowing I have you and I can talk to you and have to talk to others is amazing! And Lauren, she shows me there is hope! She is there for me and I love her for it!!! Lyrics here

True Colors by Ciny Lauper
I need someone to se MY true colors right now... The people mentioned above have done that.

Wherever you will go by The Calling
MY KITTY! This is one of our songs and I love it! I also (again) need someone to do this for me.

Wonderful by Everclear
This has been a song of forever for me. Its for every kid who's ever had their parents divorce and sometimes wish they could be "normal" again. (notice the quotes on normal, now it seems normal IS divorce. Sad)

Bad Day by Daniel Powter
I have lots of bad days. This is a bad day anthem... hints the name!

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfeild
This hasn't changed since last time I did a "songs of now"

We're all mad by Natasha Bedingfeild
lyrics read them... This song expresses individuality and says that is ok to be you. Because we are all weird and "mad" in our own way and that if we wern't ourselves, the world wouldn't be right. (the non-conformist anthem!)

Wind beneath my wings by Bette Midler
I need someone to be the wind beneath my wings... I used to think this was mom... and it did... but then politics took over and its not...

Superman by Five for Fighting
Read the lyrics... I feel like I have to be superman (or woman) and I can't do it!

100 Years by Five for Fighting
I don't know why this is a song of now... It just is... I love the corus! Lyrics here

You've got a friend by James Taylor
I need to know I've got a friend... the people mentioned in "Wind Beneath Your Wings" have done that kinda...

Iris by Goo Goo Dolls
lyrics This is how I feel about the world... mostly Marc and people close to him but the world works too!

Will I from Rent
Will I wake from the nightmare of life?

Take me or Leave me from Rent
It just works... theres not much else to say...

Vindicated by Dashboard Confession
I don't know... lyrics It just is.

Run by Snow Patrol
lryics It just works... The corus for me when Marc leaves and the rest for other varios parts of my life.

Live like you were dying by Tim McGraw
I want to live like I was dying... I really do...

Rescue me by Aretha Franklin
WOOT WOOT FOR ARETHA FRANKLIN! lyrics Marc, rescue me...

That Don't impress me much by Shania Twain
"Okay, so you've got a car
That don't impress me much
So you got the moves but have you got the touch
Don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm in the middle of the night" If only if only... If only the car didn't impress me much. HAHA!

Wild world by Cat Stevens
This song reminds me of the old mom... The one I could talk to you... because she used to sing this to me

You're Beautiful by James Blunt
This hasn't changed since last time either...

If I had a million dollars by Bare Naked Ladies
its got a humorus side but the "If I had a million dollars I'd buy your love" part is so amazing... because that's what I think it would take to get some people's love.

What becomes of the broken hearted by lots of people
All versions of this song are pretty much the same... I don't want to take the time to figure who did it first so I say all versions are fine. Now for why..."What becomes of the broken hearted Who had love that's now departed? I know I've got to find Some kind of peace of mind" oh yeah... the ultimate life question...

If I could Turn back time by Cher
I would LOVE for Marc to sing this to me... enough said... actually NOW its enough said... Read the lyrics... click the now

Open Arms by Journey
lyrics read them... this is how I feel about Marc... and others too... but mainly him.

the list is longer than this but I don't feel like doing this right now... I'll finish later..

That Giant update will come... but for now...

I can't make you love me if you don't by Bonnie Raitt... Marc... Pay attention to this... I give up! I give up!!!!!!!!!!!! I've realized thats all there is to do... just give up... oh and I DIDN'T TOUCH IT TODAY EITHER!!!!!! I DIDN'T "STROKE" IT!!!! WOOOT WOOT!!!!! I AM PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!! I walked by it but I didn't touch it! WOOT WOOT! Aren't you all proud of me?!?!?!?

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, dont patronize - dont patronize me

Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont

Ill close my eyes, then I wont see
The love you dont feel when youre holding me
Morning will come and Ill do whats right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power
But you wont, no you wont
cause I cant make you love me, if you dont

When I have more time...

When I have more time I will post this GIANT entry all about last night and today... because those two days have been VERY intresting! HAHA! Its been FUN! I leave you with a preview: NOEL AND I ARE POLE DANCERS!!!! HAHAHA!!!!

Just because (haha! this title is the same as my blog name! HA!)

I haven't posed in a while so I will do this. Um... theres really not much to say. I wrote to Delilah again. 'cept this time it was about my mom. It was about her and politics. and how thats all she ever thinks about anymore. It hurts. I feel like she ignores me if its not about politics. Its sad when you start to make things up about politics and school to make your mother listen to you but that is the point I am at right now. Sad I know... but my mother doesn't. . Oh well though. I just feel kinda empty now too. I mean Livia is like being all "I'm not your friend anymore because you make me feel "inferior"!" but whatever. its my prob. actually, one of my MANY problems. Oh well. I'll do more later I just don't feel that motiviated. Nor have I the past few days. its depressing.